The Many Adventures of a Thede

I feel like I lived in taxis this past Saturday. I had to drop off the dry cleaning for the show in the morning, so I took a cab. Then I took a cab back home. Then I had to go pick up the dry cleaning, then I had to take it up to our vans in Harlem, then I had to get some props that we need for a rehearsal tomorrow out of the vans and take them to my apartment. I could have taken them all the way down to Chelsea where our rehearsal is tomorrow, but that just would have been too much cab riding for one day. So, I took a total of 5 rides in one day. I'm sure other people take that many cabs every day, but it was a record for me. Anyway, it's on the company dollar, otherwise I would have spent about $50 on transportation.

I'm in a state of dissatisfaction lately. Not in a terrible way. Just in a slightly unsettled way. I'm working on getting over my last relationship, and feeling closer and closer to being completely over it. But I don't think I'm quite there yet. I'm dating again, which has been good. But I always thought it would take a new relationship to get over Bo. It turns out, a new relationship is almost causing me to backslide. Maybe because I miss being totally secure in a relationship, rather than all the guesswork and games that are involved in the beginning stages. I'm also feeling dissatisfied with my job. I'm so happy to be employed in theatre and actually getting money and health benefits. But I'm also under a lot of stress because of this job. Sometimes it just seems too hard to be worth it. I know everyone feels like this sometimes. Everyone wonders if they picked the right path in life. And right now, I'm wondering. But that's just today. Maybe tomorrow the sun will come out and I'll feel differently.